Monday, February 20, 2012

One Backward Look

Something new happens all of the time. This time my scanner decided to have fun and make the picture very small. It is still big enough for me to make my point. See that little girl way over on the right of the group. This is a picture of my grandparents, Mom and Dad, and sisters at Niagara Falls. I must have been way into something else to miss the spectacular falls and be looking at my shoes.

The funny thing is that I do remember the falls and that trip. That little girl was different. She didn't always think the same way as other people. She often had a best friend but few extra friends. She loved books and dolls. She loved animals. She even loved church.

I have recently been on a search for Grace. I want to give myself permission to live and live without guilt or all of the negative things that used to occupy my brain. This idea of letting God love me and having everything else move from that point is rather new for me. I was always a doer, a striver. Now, what I do comes from this place of peace and joy.

I would love to go back in time just this once and hug that little girl and say, "I love you. You will be just fine. God loves you and that's the best kind of news there is." And then I would come back to my family and my everyday life and just live in the contentment and trust of the Lord that I have been given. This is my new thing. I'm looking to Jesus to help me go forward and not go back again, except to rejoice in the wonderful things He has done.


  1. I think this is wonderful, Nancy, and I may just borrow this mindset if that's alright. We do need to look ahead, with and thru Him, for He is the author and finisher of our faith. :)

  2. I like the way you said that, Karen.

  3. Aahhhh, to live without guilt and negative thoughts. Both those can permeate our days if we let them, can't they? That's a wonderful goal, Nancy!

  4. I love that you are doing this. I wish I could starting today but it isn't easy. I look forward to your new goal and journey!! I will learn from it!

  5. Hi Nancy -

    Would you believe I just read another blog post on this subject? God sure has a way of making a point.

    Too often we're like the Galatians and turning back to a performance mentality. As we nurture our relationship with Jesus, His character is formed in us.

    Susan :)

  6. Oh I love this posting. Dear Nancy, I think you found it... Grace, that is! Lovely glimpses of that little girl. She's beautiful. Thanks so much for sharing so openly.

    It would seem He's got us both (many of us, in fact) on a similar journey... moving towards the Center of His heart where the peace and joy swirls all around us. It makes us safe and content, knowing we're loved beyond our wildest dreams. Coming to that place where now we can live from that place of reaching out to Him and to others with a wild abandonment... just loving without fear, without guilt, without shame.

    You made my day very special with this post!

    Wishing you more wonderful glimpses................